They say clothes are a way to express who you are without having to speak. If I go back to all my fashion experiments, my clothes would have told you I am a tomboy, then a barbie, then a bitch, then a badass, then a hippie and the list goes on and on because I am not even including my early years of life where I spent everyday dressed up as Pocahontas.
Somehow the list above can just prove you that my clothes proved that I was trying to embody too many personalities to find mine. I shamelessly copied every single person I admired: The girls at school, the fans of the group I adored, the girls on disney channel, the bloggers I followed religiously. I didn’t have that spark that you sometimes see in people, a Je ne sais quoi that we all somehow try to emulate until we find our own. Clearly, clothes never were my superpower, they were more of an armor. A thick layer on my body to hide each curve, each feminine asset, each imperfection and each bump on my skin.
Because so many barriers stopped me from owning my own clothes, they didn’t mean anything to me because I didn’t have anything to say about myself. I was a girl with so many layers on, so many thoughts & feelings buried under an XXL shirt from my grandpa’s closet. But a few months ago, I gained a strength I was not even conscious I had. I feel like I have slowly been unveiling parts of myself to the world: one after another. It started with pictures and followed with the words. Somehow taking off all those layers made me want to go further. Write more and maybe dress more the way I write.
It feels like I have found myself involved in this blogging process by mistake, but it was the one of the most beautiful mistake I have ever made as it made me not only own the clothes I wear but also the body and mind that go under it. I’m like a Pokemon, I fight my battles everyday to evolve into a completely different version of myself. A version that still holds the original essence but so much more power to spread her energy through her clothes. So don’t be surprised if as all the layers fall on the floor, I decide to enter in combat and trade my signature sneaker for a badass yet classic pump.
Lots of love always,
Neguine
TODAY I’M WEARING: ZARA pants // Zara top // ZARA jacket // Mango shoes // CHLOÉ DREW bag
All pictures by Darius Boustantchi
You are a pure beauty inside and out. Love your style & You.
I really enjoyed reading this babe.
Thanks for the inspiration.
Kisses, Raysa
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Just like you my Raysa. You are one of the kindest souls I have met on this IG family and I am so happy about it. Thank you for also being an inspiration. you are the best and I loveeee You <3
Neg! My love! I Adore these pictures! You look so chic in this monochrome outfit. I will never get tired of your writing! Keep up the good work babe! Xxx
Neg! My Love! I adore these pictures! You look so chic in this monochrome outfit. I dont think I will ever get tired of your writing. You are such an inspiration. Thank you for being you.
xxx Britta
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And i adore you. Thank you so much for that truly, so many times I am like scared of writing certain things for that reason. I think maybe I am going round and round, But you are one of the lights that always guide me back to writing and I have to tell you how grateful i am for that. Love you so so much sis and thank you for being you too. You are as much as an inspiration <3
Ohh these photos and clothes are so good!! I went through that copycat phase too, especially in high school. I’d literally be in my bedroom with an issue of teen vogue open on my bed and try to recreate the outfits I saw in their editorials. It definitely takes time to realize what your style actually is x
Those shots of you – damn! You look so powerful, confident and chic!! You are a boss lady who I admire a lot!
Also, love to see you wearing heels!
And this might be my fave post!!! <3
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I admire you right back my sis, you are truly everything!!! Thank you for supporting me no matter what the words are, I feel lucky to have found you. Thank you for being you and love you always sis <3